I can't even remember what I was going to write about when I originally opened this program. That's the problem with my brain, it goes a million miles a second!
I like to think that's part of the reason for my depression. I can't shut my brain off. It makes it difficult to stay on one topic. It even makes it difficult to get to sleep as my brain wont calm down enough to do so.
I want to look in to medication for ADHD as at this point I feel like I've tried and failed too many times at just forcing myself to stay on task through willpower alone. I have started to work on mindfulness training, but like typical ADHD fashion I don't remember to do it and when I do think about it it always feels like I don't have time to spend meditating at just that moment so I put it off only to forget all about it later.
It's just very frustrating, I feel like I've wasted so much of my life not accomplishing anything meaningful due to my inability to stay interested.
I want to create longer more meaningful posts, but that's easier said than done. I had this saved as a draft for the last few days because I felt the post was too short. But this is it, I've got some stuff I can certainly expand upon I think. For now I'll have to let this bird fly.
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